Well, as you can maybe tell from my title, PATIENCE is going to be the subject of this blog entry! As in, I need some….NOW!! I feel as if I’m in a really weird spot in my cancer journey. I’ve commented to Dave I really thought I’d be feeling much better than I am now…thought I’d have less pain, more movement and feeling in my arm and more energy. Things have progressed more slowly than predicted, which has been somewhat frustrating. I’m still not able to drive (Dr.’s orders) and I had to postpone my return to work for at least another week. My husband keeps reminding me it's okay to SLOW DOWN….I had two surgeries within a 3 week span and my body is probably just beat. Yeah, yeah, yeah……but I’m READY to jump back into my life. I’m anxious to see all those those wonderful little faces at school, stop at Jamba Juice for a smoothie, go shopping with my daughter, go on a bike ride, cruise alone in the car, singing at the top of my lungs AND, get this….I’m even ready to (gasp!) DO LAUNDRY! My brain is in high gear, planning what to do next and my body just laughs and says “Yeah, right!”
Something else I’ve noticed is that when I’m feeling better, I lean less on God. Those early days of diagnosis I feel as if I spent a TON of time in prayer and devotions. I miss that. I know I’ve drifted away from that a bit and really need to get back on track! Yesterday, as I was thinking cranky thoughts, the verse “Be still and know that I am God” popped into my head. What a great reminder that rather than crabbing about what I CAN’T do right now, I need to quiet my heart to focus on Him and His will for my life. So, perhaps slowing things down is His way to bring me back to those quiet times.
I meet with the Radiologist for the first time this Tuesday. I’m hoping to leave that appointment with what to expect with the radiation treatments. Prayers would be appreciated that the appointment goes well, that my mobility progresses so I can drive soon and that the swelling I’m experiencing will subside. And, of course, some prayers for patience! Could you please do that RIGHT NOW? (Hee Hee!)
In His Strength,Cindy and the VK's
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Who doesn't need prayers for patience?! Isn't it the truth that we usually want things to happen immediately. I know I do! However, prayers for patience it will be! I'm so glad you're feeling well, though. How is your appetite? Time for more brownies or a trip to J. Alexanders?
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